Perfectionism...

It's weird...

I realize that for the past 2 weeks, I've been pretty productive and I can't quite put my finger on it.

I think whenever I get into one of these sucky states in life, I just tend to push through it by doing what I can to move on...

I spent 2 hours at the gym after work today. I did back, legs and arms-- and I also ran 5 miles during the last hour. I think I'm down to 165 pounds now (at least that's what the scale said, after I finished exercising and spent 10 minutes in the steam room) and I'm trying to eat less too.

Anywho, I was watching "America's Next Top Model" and I was sorely disappointed when this pretty girl-- Melrose-- ended up losing. She was a hard-worker and a perfectionist-- similar to how I'd like to see myself-- and it just gets me annoyed when they don't win (kind of like Michelle Kwan not winning the Olympics).

If I think about it, I can kind of understand that Melrose probably racked up a bunch of bad karma throughout the season, by being mean to the other girls. But it just seems like some kind of weird equation that hard work + dedication + natural beauty doesn't lead you to winning the competition (and a less-pretty, unpolished, bad runway girl wins instead).

Makes me think... =/

Sorry for no pictures tonight. It's been a long week already.

I'll try to wake up at 5AM again tomorrow to get into work early. =P